So tragic. I am sorry for you and the countless others that have experienced a loved one committing suicide. For me, a relationship with my Lord and Savior keeps me grounded and safe from such a horrible spirit like suicide. If only we could see their heart and know the suffering they must be feeling before they make that decision. I am not sure we will ever understand it unless we have lived life in their shoes and minds. God Bless you and all the others. So sad.