The VA docs are just trying to check boxes and kick people out so they can check boxes on the next guy. I'm sick of trying with them. Going to a different doc tomorrow. Hopefully she will listen.
I started teaching my new class today. I felt ok at first but by the time I was done 4 hours later I felt like I was going to pass out. Started getting words mixed up at the end and it felt like a prison. Now I'm sitting here angry. I just want to feel halfway good. I want to be able to sleep. I...
I know. Getting my mind to slow down is the hardest part. I've started losing words and that's tough. I was always the smartest guy in the room and now I can't remember basic **** when it hits.
No clue. Woke up in my CHU in Iraq with my heart beating out of my chest and I couldn't catch my breath. It was August 2009. It's only gotten worse since then. I haven't had a good night's sleep in 15 years.
It's become debilitating at times now. Just leaving the house has become the hardest thing I do every day. I'm briefing Full Birds and SES's and I feel like I'm going to pass out. Being in front of my class feels like I'm sitting down with the devil discussing which torments I'm in line for...
I don't feel good though. I know what's going on but getting to that good is the hard part. It helps talking about it but it feels like waxing a car with a blown motor.
Any of y'all suffering through it? I never admitted to myself that I had it until very recently. I have been reflecting lately and I think it's time to confront it. Sleeping on the couch for 15 years and being on high alert 24/7 should have been enough for me to wake up to it. I felt like I was...